Hello everyone!
The sun is shining in Glasgow this week and I got to say, I feel pretty bright and breezy, not just because it's Friday you understand but I have breathing space (mentally)!
This week has been a roller coaster of emotions for myself in particular as I am getting the keys to my new flat! Yaaaay. All good but then I got a little 'over emotional' when I started looking at my finances.
Yes, I can afford a new place which is great! It's the dark and lonely place that everyone faces and I mean everyone! It's called Debt...
Now most of you will read this, roll your eyes and think, 'oh great, another blog about how to manage money.' *clicks close*
No honey, it's about how to manage your mindset about the situation and learn to talk to people. This week I've been frantically talking to my bank, trying to sort out plans for my future and now, as I'm typing this to you, I feel totally at ease.
The lady in the bank, Jane is her name, told me that it wasn't a sign of weakness what I was doing, but courage. I'm simply holding my hands up, bringing my stubbornness to a halt and saying, hey, I need help. There is nothing wrong with this.
I came out feeling 100 times better about myself and my situation.
Now, the lesson this week is more of a don't worry about it mindset, but the truth is, you'll worry until it's finished. I'm a worrier, so there will be times I'll be screaming into my pillow and thinking of all these situations that are not and will never happen. Thanks anxiety!
I've chosen to take the thought process of being free. Let's face it, no man or woman is an island, you can move forward, open up and ask for the help.
There is a catch to this.... you have to let go of the fear and the stubbornness. It's not as easy as it sounds by the way... but it's doable.
I wish you all the best with forward thinking.
Please let me know how you get on and remember, we're all in this together.
Peace!xo
Cxxx
Friday 5 May 2017
Thursday 27 April 2017
Fortune Cookie
Hello everyone!
I would say happy April, but I think I'm a little late for that!
I apologise I've not been blogging much due to work commitments, trying to exercise, text everyone back, maintain a social life, spend time/gaming with the other half and catch up on Netflix.
So we are slowly approaching May and as I sit here listening to my Dad have a karaoke session to himself, I open a Fortune Cookie I was given that evening.
Now, usually I don't pay attention to the messages inside, I just eat the cookie and have a giggle at the messages, but this time, my message made me feel positive about my current situation.
My message - 'The current year will bring you much happiness.'
This made me reflect on this time last year, I felt I could settle where I was and that things would get better if I just ignored them. I doubted myself, I thought I was the problem and I needed to fix my feelings and 'get happy'.
Getting happy isn't easy. You need to make sacrifices. When my last relationship broke down, I walked away from toxic feelings, a home I loved, and someone I thought I loved. I moved back with my parent, feeling the lowest I've ever felt. Forever blaming myself and I let myself go, not only with my weight, but I stopped looking after myself, I took too much on to 'keep busy' and eventually I had to leave a job that just got too much for me, break away from people in general and find myself again.
Six months later, I'm in a new relationship with someone I did not expect, I am waiting for confirmation on my new flat, I have the job that I wanted and love very much and I have a partner, family and friends that support my decisions.
As we approach May, the air is a little warmer, the sky is bluer, and the grass is greener, so to speak, and I can finally say with confidence that I'm happy. Not only with the optimistic future I have but I am finally happy with myself and I can say yes, I have found inner peace.
Now, please say you know that movie, The Shawshank Redemption? Good. If not, watch it, don't be silly. Anyway, That movie taught me that sometimes you need to crawl through dark tunnels that smell and that are surrounded with shit to get out clean and happy on the other side. I believe this.
Everyone has their own definition of 'happy' and I have finally found mine! Even if it took a fortune cookie to tell me so...
Happy reading! <3
Cx
I would say happy April, but I think I'm a little late for that!
I apologise I've not been blogging much due to work commitments, trying to exercise, text everyone back, maintain a social life, spend time/gaming with the other half and catch up on Netflix.
So we are slowly approaching May and as I sit here listening to my Dad have a karaoke session to himself, I open a Fortune Cookie I was given that evening.
Now, usually I don't pay attention to the messages inside, I just eat the cookie and have a giggle at the messages, but this time, my message made me feel positive about my current situation.
My message - 'The current year will bring you much happiness.'
This made me reflect on this time last year, I felt I could settle where I was and that things would get better if I just ignored them. I doubted myself, I thought I was the problem and I needed to fix my feelings and 'get happy'.
Getting happy isn't easy. You need to make sacrifices. When my last relationship broke down, I walked away from toxic feelings, a home I loved, and someone I thought I loved. I moved back with my parent, feeling the lowest I've ever felt. Forever blaming myself and I let myself go, not only with my weight, but I stopped looking after myself, I took too much on to 'keep busy' and eventually I had to leave a job that just got too much for me, break away from people in general and find myself again.
Six months later, I'm in a new relationship with someone I did not expect, I am waiting for confirmation on my new flat, I have the job that I wanted and love very much and I have a partner, family and friends that support my decisions.
As we approach May, the air is a little warmer, the sky is bluer, and the grass is greener, so to speak, and I can finally say with confidence that I'm happy. Not only with the optimistic future I have but I am finally happy with myself and I can say yes, I have found inner peace.
Now, please say you know that movie, The Shawshank Redemption? Good. If not, watch it, don't be silly. Anyway, That movie taught me that sometimes you need to crawl through dark tunnels that smell and that are surrounded with shit to get out clean and happy on the other side. I believe this.
Everyone has their own definition of 'happy' and I have finally found mine! Even if it took a fortune cookie to tell me so...
Happy reading! <3
Cx
Saturday 11 March 2017
Don't Be Afraid to Take Time Out
Hi everyone!
I'm back!
Firstly, apologies for being so quiet. I've had a lot of demons to put back into their boxes.
The past eight months have got to be the worst I've endured. Not all of those days were bad. I had some great days but lots of those days I wish I could forget.
I was a little disheartened about a month ago. I was told by a few people that when I write my blogs, I'm a different person and that I shouldn't be writing because I'm a hypocrite. For those who take the time to read my blogs, I thank you. I thank you for having that little bit of faith in me. For those who don't think my blogs are good enough, you're still reading them right?
I had to take time away from friends, work and some family. I had to take time for myself. As selfish as it may sound, I urge those who are going through hard times, whether it be mentally or physically, take the time out from work, take time to discover yourself again. As much as I felt guilty for doing it, I'm a lot happier. I'm also writing again!
I never thought I would go back to writing but I learned that no matter how much people criticize you, they still choose to read your blogs, follow your social media, and why? To make themselves feel better,
I have recently made some hard decisions too. My job was one of them. I had to make a move into something completely different and start again in a different industry. As much as I thought about staying in the same place and just 'make it work', I decided that no matter how mentally challenging it would be to meet new people, settle into a different environment, the move would either make or break me. So far, I'm making the best of what I have. I made the right decision after doing one day in my new environment.
Taking the steps to move is tricky, whether it be work or home. If it feels right, do it.
The same goes for new relationships. I never thought I would meet someone who could put up with me, even through my mood swings! Most of us humans doubt ourselves, we tend to become someone else when you meet someone new, we become the person we aspire to be and eventually make ourselves miserable.
Personally, I've learned to let that go and just be myself. I find some days where I get a little scared, but I remember the long term. I need to make myself happy before I can make someone else happy.
It's early days, but this is the happiest I've been in four years.
There are days where I wake up scared but happy. Change is a good thing. It feels scary and it puts a lot of people off. Stick with your gut and don't be afraid to take the time out, don't be afraid to admit that you need help and that you aren't coping at the moment.
Start this week a fresh and if it rains, smile. Monday is just another day, take something good from each day and it will get easier.
Have a wonderful week.
Cx
I'm back!
Firstly, apologies for being so quiet. I've had a lot of demons to put back into their boxes.
The past eight months have got to be the worst I've endured. Not all of those days were bad. I had some great days but lots of those days I wish I could forget.
I was a little disheartened about a month ago. I was told by a few people that when I write my blogs, I'm a different person and that I shouldn't be writing because I'm a hypocrite. For those who take the time to read my blogs, I thank you. I thank you for having that little bit of faith in me. For those who don't think my blogs are good enough, you're still reading them right?
I had to take time away from friends, work and some family. I had to take time for myself. As selfish as it may sound, I urge those who are going through hard times, whether it be mentally or physically, take the time out from work, take time to discover yourself again. As much as I felt guilty for doing it, I'm a lot happier. I'm also writing again!
I never thought I would go back to writing but I learned that no matter how much people criticize you, they still choose to read your blogs, follow your social media, and why? To make themselves feel better,
I have recently made some hard decisions too. My job was one of them. I had to make a move into something completely different and start again in a different industry. As much as I thought about staying in the same place and just 'make it work', I decided that no matter how mentally challenging it would be to meet new people, settle into a different environment, the move would either make or break me. So far, I'm making the best of what I have. I made the right decision after doing one day in my new environment.
Taking the steps to move is tricky, whether it be work or home. If it feels right, do it.
The same goes for new relationships. I never thought I would meet someone who could put up with me, even through my mood swings! Most of us humans doubt ourselves, we tend to become someone else when you meet someone new, we become the person we aspire to be and eventually make ourselves miserable.
Personally, I've learned to let that go and just be myself. I find some days where I get a little scared, but I remember the long term. I need to make myself happy before I can make someone else happy.
It's early days, but this is the happiest I've been in four years.
There are days where I wake up scared but happy. Change is a good thing. It feels scary and it puts a lot of people off. Stick with your gut and don't be afraid to take the time out, don't be afraid to admit that you need help and that you aren't coping at the moment.
Start this week a fresh and if it rains, smile. Monday is just another day, take something good from each day and it will get easier.
Have a wonderful week.
Cx
Monday 16 January 2017
Happy, Healthy & Hopeful
Hi everyone!
It's been a while since I've flourished you all with my rambling wisdom!
January is a fresh start for everyone. Whether it be a new fitness regime, a promise to yourself that you won't sniff chocolate let alone eat it, or remain sober for thirty days or more, we all have a goal and we set out with good intentions but fall at the last hurdle (usually).
I stopped going to the gym two months ago, drank heavily for five months, lost my abs, ate everything (and yes, I mean everything) in sight!
My goal was to get back to the gym, eat better, drink water and look after my skin. I'm sixteen days in and I'm feeling so much better, and I truly mean that. My skin has looked better than it's ever looked, I feel awake (most mornings anyway), and I'm beginning to enjoy being in the kitchen again as opposed to picking up the phone for a take away.
I'm feeling better within myself and I'm mentally getting better with the right tools.
I've had some feedback from you guys about my blogs and how they wish to be as positive. My message to you all is that you can. I had to give myself a good talking to and take my own advice but I'm beginning to get happy and be comfortable on my own again.
Here's what I'm doing at the minute.
1. Setting goals - no matter how small they seem, write them down.
2. Don't set a deadline - you'll meet the goal, no matter how long it takes.
3. Don't put pressure on yourself - the only limit is you, but if something doesn't feel right, trust it.
4. There is no expiry date on happiness.
These are tough but fair points. It had taken me time to start taking my own advice but I did it for the better. I hope at least one of these points help you with your journey.
Have a happy week!
Peace!
Cx
It's been a while since I've flourished you all with my rambling wisdom!
January is a fresh start for everyone. Whether it be a new fitness regime, a promise to yourself that you won't sniff chocolate let alone eat it, or remain sober for thirty days or more, we all have a goal and we set out with good intentions but fall at the last hurdle (usually).
I stopped going to the gym two months ago, drank heavily for five months, lost my abs, ate everything (and yes, I mean everything) in sight!
My goal was to get back to the gym, eat better, drink water and look after my skin. I'm sixteen days in and I'm feeling so much better, and I truly mean that. My skin has looked better than it's ever looked, I feel awake (most mornings anyway), and I'm beginning to enjoy being in the kitchen again as opposed to picking up the phone for a take away.
I'm feeling better within myself and I'm mentally getting better with the right tools.
I've had some feedback from you guys about my blogs and how they wish to be as positive. My message to you all is that you can. I had to give myself a good talking to and take my own advice but I'm beginning to get happy and be comfortable on my own again.
Here's what I'm doing at the minute.
1. Setting goals - no matter how small they seem, write them down.
2. Don't set a deadline - you'll meet the goal, no matter how long it takes.
3. Don't put pressure on yourself - the only limit is you, but if something doesn't feel right, trust it.
4. There is no expiry date on happiness.
These are tough but fair points. It had taken me time to start taking my own advice but I did it for the better. I hope at least one of these points help you with your journey.
Have a happy week!
Peace!
Cx
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